What if we are here on Earth to BE joy?
I have spent so many years obssessive about my energy field, transcending karma and having my DNA activated and focused on ascension in consciousness. Emphatic that I was not reincarnating that this incarnation was it for me. I had bought into the drama of the earth, the fallens and the agendas of various kinds going on behind the scenes while TRYING to cancell clear it from my mind and live a disciplined life free from judgment, being more accepting, trusting and open.
I soaked up what ever energy training was being offered from my then human teacher and bought into the message spread forth about how important it is for indigos to wake up and so on. There were times over the years that I would scream at the universe, my golden self, and the masters as well as the ONE in deep frustration and sorrow. I even seriously planned on leaving this earth ahead of my time due to the stress of it all because I believed I was not accelerating fast enough, that I was not good enough and when I came up with ideas for training or sessions, someone else was already doing it. I desired to be the very best and offer something that was different and unique than anyone else on the planet in a sincere effort to be of service.
Then came the battle with the transcending of the ego and the conflicting stories surrounding this topic. Some were yes, transcend and others would be like who cares it is you and get over it! So confusing, frustrating and maddening was the various versions of stories. They were similiar in content but using diffferent words, concepts or even codes to help during this transcendental time. Through all the activations, clearings, reading and practice I knew the answer was so close that I could taste it. It seemed like the answer was always just out of reach and at this time I had gone through so much drama, that I had learned to shrug this off. I cared deep inside and it hurt to take an active caring on the outside. I had learned not to hang on words and view points of others around me. When clients would send so called messages from my team, I blew that off too as many times the messages were way off and were really from the clients personality. This was a blessing too because I no longer hung on the words of the ascended ones. I had tried in the past to renounce their existence however, I knew that was not true and they were pretty clear about making sure I knew it too!
As of a week ago, I got very clear for the first time since I woke up in 2003 to this path. I was introduced to my ascended mentor and through a rather interesting dialogue that included me mostly blowing off the conversation, I got the AHAA of the missing piece of truth for me.
...
